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空閒‧空間

最近沒有死線要趕，感覺上(不是實際上啊)好像空閒了點。但今天晚上還是工作至接近8時才離開辦公室。不緊，因為我獲得KO工作而來的滿足感。

發覺自己最近常常傻兮兮，那個愛玩的我回來了。即使在辦公室，有時都不很正經。其實這樣不好，因為會給別人壞印象，以為我做事不認真，為人又不夠穩重，說服力都會變得薄弱。但其實那又怎樣，反正這個就是自己，凡事都放「輕」一點，放「鬆」一點，不就更舒服。

不要勉強自己做不想做的事，見不想見的人，是我最近最大的啟發。既然已經是平衡線，就永永遠遠安守做平衡線的本份。思考過一輪，沒有丁點的不安和不快，反而自在了不少。See you later可以省下，感覺竟然良好。

今天晚上我也很空閒。Extra的。本來要和一眾同事來個Night Walkathon的pre-walk，天雨關係取消了。加上V先生正在加班，想在線上多待一會(雖然不會chat, 免他分心)，就來到blog這裡打發時間了。曾幾何時我天天都寫，我敢說大部分都是言之有物，絕非胡扯。變成上班族以後，空閒時間少了，心思也少了。即使工作經驗日增，心靈卻越見乾涸，文字變得空洞，情況讓我感到有點可怕。

還是多看些書，多留點空間給自己，面得自己的思想發毛。不是光說的，我開了The Mcdonaldization of Society呀! 最屁自己的是，當我還在唸大學時不看，現在才去認真看, 遲了十萬年啦...

逆光飄移

4月迅速地飄移了，這裡給無情地荒廢個多月了。

不是沒有不值得寫的東西；好幾次我都靈感暴發，就是來到電腦面前便便秘。

電腦正在重覆地播放著孫燕姿的《逆光》。說實在旋律很普通，跟容祖兒的K歌沒o舍差別。特別的是孫燕姿。

曾經我挺迷她的歌聲，天天都在宿舍房間播，5次歌唱比賽中，3次選了她的歌，又「幸福」又「難過」的，唱到滑溜了為止。我不明白為甚麼我會如此鐘情她的歌和 歌聲。很多人喜歡上一個歌手，大抵是因為他/她的情歌等於自己的情詩/情史，又或者等同自己的愛情觀。孫燕姿的歌其實跟我的感情生活扯不上很大很大的關係，不過，她的歌故事性很強，有時聽著聽著，就會把我扯到老遠的夢，喜的悲的，自我憐憫一番。又有時，她的歌說的是朋友的故事。還記得第一次聽《害怕》是由友人A演繹，後來友人A遇到情變，當時事態很嚴重，我們都很擔心。事過境遷，再聽《害怕》，活脫脫是她的心聲。今天，《害怕》依然是我的all-time favourite，旋律較《逆光》優美多了。

我好像把燕姿這首點題新作說得很爛。不然啊!我就是想說，這麼順耳的"K"作，因為燕姿那很薄卻又很倔強、很有力量的歌聲，在我還未弄清楚歌詞之前，竟然都聽得我的心微微悸動。這種被打動的感覺，實在是久違了。當然，感覺被喚醒，或多或少基於個人情感記憶，就好像讓我想起了，曾經有一天，在房間「煲」她的《the moments》新曲+精選…

很少流行曲我會冠以「動聽」來形容，孫燕姿的是個例外。澄清我不是她的迷。假若有一天她水準滑下，我會坦白的。

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關於我和《the moments》的二三事

「燕姿的歌聲讓我的心得到片刻寧靜，在黑壓壓的，趕死命的，full of uncertainties的生活當中，"撓"我上岸邊抖抖氣。」3年前聽《the moments》有感。

很驚訝3年的速度是過得如斯飛快。如果當年埋下的是一顆顆種子，經過3年的悉心灌溉，怕今天都略見成長吧。感謝我的逆光，與我這個無知的小巴巴一起印證。

24小時?多D得唔得?

這陣子朝九晚六，努力工作；放工七至十一，努力排戲。

只係, 呢兩件事(做野同做戲)都唔可以一味得個做字，而係要時間去思考同摸索。偏偏六勞碌完一day，經已疲累非常。回到家，就想睡...連同V先生傾計既時間都無...幸而尚可偷得浮生，兩支公走去聽concert :) 話時話，o係呢段咁死忙既日子，竟然仲有時間睇左7場show!!!等我佩服下自己先!!!

今個星期尾就on show了，無乜好大期望，不過都有唔少第一次。發夢都無諗過做編劇，竟然寫o左個劇本，仲比呀導演大哥問我有無興趣之後幫佢地套劇將o的idea寫成劇本(咁當然只係幫佢地將d野寫成script，對白呀場面調導呀當然係subject to change)...

仲有，我個造型都幾"cute"架..........

仲有係，我同brenda識jor咁多年，終於有機會同台演戲! (kakakaka)

唉。好累了。番房hup一hup，等V先生打黎叫醒我先~

Films I've watched!

Copied from Janice, all about films...

UPPOSEDLY if you’ve seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you’ve seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own facebook account, paste this as a note. Then, put x’s next to the films you’ve seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Grease
( ) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man’s Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane

Total: 1

( ) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
( ) Anger Management
( ) 50 First Dates
( ) The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total so far: 2

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp

Total so far: 5

( ) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
( ) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch

Total so far: 8

(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
( ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) 13 Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
( ) Robots

Total so far: 9

( ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
( ) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
( ) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
( ) KING KONG - only the original

Total so far:9

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
( ) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
( ) Flubber

Total so far: 11

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards

Total so far: 11

( ) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child’s Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(12) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask

Total so far: 12

( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Slevin
( ) Ocean’s Eleven
(x) Ocean’s Twelve
( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
( ) Ice Age
( ) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George

Total so far: 13

( ) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
() Rush Hour 2

Total so far: 13

( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She’s All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
( ) The Terminator
( ) The Terminator 2
( ) The Terminator 3

Total so far: 15

( ) X-Men
( ) X-2
( ) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x)The Little Mermaid
( ) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
( ) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2

Total so far: 20

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle on 34th street - only the original
( ) Old School
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf’s Tribe
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old Virgin

Total so far: 20

( ) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
( ) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
( ) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
( ) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade

Total so far: 20

( ) Baseketball
( ) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
( ) Elf
( ) Highlander
( ) Mothman Prophecies
( ) American History X
( ) Three

Total so Far: 20

( ) The Jacket
(x) Kung Fu Hustle
(x) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
( ) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
( ) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
( ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard

Total so far: 23

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
( ) Hulk
( ) Dawn Of the Dead
( ) Hook
( ) Chronicles Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
( ) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
( ) Waterworld

Total so far: 23

( ) Kill Bill vol 1
( ) Kill Bill vol 2
( ) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
( ) Kingdom of Heaven
( ) the Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( ) Army of Darkness

Total so far: 23

( ) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
( ) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
( ) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
( ) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
( ) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
( ) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor

Total so far: 23

(x) The Matrix
( ) The Matrix Reloaded
( ) The Matrix Revolutions
( ) Animatrix
( ) Evil Dead
( ) Evil Dead 2
( ) Team America: World Police
( ) Red Dragon
( ) Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal

Final total: 25

For some of them I'm not sure if I have ever seen them or not... :P
I have the same no. of films watched as Janice. And, I have life, too?!

Roller-Coaster

Yes I'm missing from here for quite some time. I lost myself in a sea of confusion and problem, personal and from work. Yes, those things a new "student" of the university of society must get through. You find the principles you are told to stand for hardly fit for where you are situated. Especially when you are in some occupation that you are supposed to hold some stance, you'll be doubly confused. You begin to question why what you do is that sacred as they say.
Procrastination finally results in disaster. Questions to my ability, finally. Quite lost that you can't do what you do everyday, in my case to concentrate reading or making my coffee. And, the more you can't concentrate, the more you feel confused, and it goes on ad infinitum. And you get sick, real sick, almost like self defense, so that time freezes to give yourself a break from all these.
And if you are lucky you got something/somebody to take you away in some critical moment. And I have My Ms Bei. Once you get to this, you get back your faith and things will start to turn around. And I think I'm there, I'll be coming back. Soon. Thank You.