May 05, 2007

空閒‧空間

最近沒有死線要趕,感覺上(不是實際上啊)好像空閒了點。但今天晚上還是工作至接近8時才離開辦公室。不緊,因為我獲得KO工作而來的滿足感。

發覺自己最近常常傻兮兮,那個愛玩的我回來了。即使在辦公室,有時都不很正經。其實這樣不好,因為會給別人壞印象,以為我做事不認真,為人又不夠穩重,說服力都會變得薄弱。但其實那又怎樣,反正這個就是自己,凡事都放「輕」一點,放「鬆」一點,不就更舒服。

不要勉強自己做不想做的事,見不想見的人,是我最近最大的啟發。既然已經是平衡線,就永永遠遠安守做平衡線的本份。思考過一輪,沒有丁點的不安和不快,反而自在了不少。See you later可以省下,感覺竟然良好。

今天晚上我也很空閒。Extra的。本來要和一眾同事來個Night Walkathon的pre-walk,天雨關係取消了。加上V先生正在加班,想在線上多待一會(雖然不會chat, 免他分心),就來到blog這裡打發時間了。曾幾何時我天天都寫,我敢說大部分都是言之有物,絕非胡扯。變成上班族以後,空閒時間少了,心思也少了。即使工作經驗日增,心靈卻越見乾涸,文字變得空洞,情況讓我感到有點可怕。

還是多看些書,多留點空間給自己,面得自己的思想發毛。不是光說的,我開了The Mcdonaldization of Society呀! 最屁自己的是,當我還在唸大學時不看,現在才去認真看, 遲了十萬年啦...

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

After become a 上班族, I read more books...yea...I felt so dry at that time. Although most of them are still remain in the 'open' stage only.

''The mcdonalization of society'' is one of them. (Last year)

However, I did finish the series of Harry Potter. Everyday brought a bible-thick book everywhere at that time.

syl

Anonymous said...

Long time no come (eh...my first time to come, should be...)

Well, how are you? Seems that you have a happy life. Good, keep it.

Be careful of mis-written chinese character....e.g. "免"得自己思想發毛...or if you mean sth else, then my apology to you.

Take care. I'll come later (later=a couple of months)

Geoff :)

Anonymous said...

I remember I read that book when I picked McDonaldization as the topic of my English Project when I was in sec 6. God knows why I did that and now I am revisiting concepts of Fordism in a subject again...

Anonymous said...

「不要勉強自己做不想做的事,見不想見的人,是我最近最大的啟發。既然已經是平衡線,就永永遠遠安守做平衡線的本份。思考過一輪,沒有丁點的不安和不快,反而自在了不少。See you later可以省下,感覺竟然良好。」

實在「於我心有戚戚然」~ 有些事情, 本來自己都是有興趣做的, 但原來付出過後, 不但沒有人欣賞, 還說你做得不是。感覺很難受, 於是這件是變得沒有興趣, 不想做...而只是因為責任問題, 而要去做。

我是一位有責任感的人, 我還是會做的, 不過心態已經不一樣了。

Brenda@PacificCoffee